Change

Here we go again…

When does it all end?

Today?

Tomorrow?

When?

I can’t fucking take all the nonsense anymore. It’s starting to really get to a point where it’s just too much and, quite frankly, I couldn’t give a shit less what happens at this point. I’m done putting in all the effort to get walked on by everyone and expected to do this or that. It’s dumb. I’m better than that.

I need a change in my life. STAT. No more of this loser boyfriend bull shit. No more of this full time job not being able to get school done bull shit. No more of this being controlled by retarded mother fuckers bull shit. NOTHING! NO MORE BULL SHIT.

I’m done pretending to be something I’m not. I’m done pretending that I care what they think and I’m done pretending that I believe that they actually know what they’re talking about.  I always get let down because no one keeps their word anymore. The world has become a selfish place to live and for a sensitive soul like me, it’s a rough territory.

It’s been 19 years of nonstop crap that I have to go through with people who are close to me. My own mother let me get walked on by a sick fucking poor excuse for a step dad.

It’s time for something drastic….

What?

I don’t know. I have so many options; I need to choose what the best long term solution is for me.

Only time will tell.

I can’t live like this anymore.