Headaches, stress, anger, and.....STROKES!!

So I learned the cause of my headaches! Which now means I can prevent them and the passing out and mood swings that go with them.

(If only it were that easy.)

I have high blood pressure from my stress levels and my inability to control my anger. They were causing the vessels in my brain to bulge causing an overload on my brain. Basically, I'm at stroke levels and I'm only 19 years old.

(Great....) -totally forced fake smile

So I've been instructed to eat better

(YUCK) Stress level + 1

Get regular sleep patterns

(There goes sleeping for 12 hours on weekends) stress level +1

De stress

(HAHA!! perfect excuse for everyone to LEAVE ME ALONE! :-) < ---actual smile and overly excited Stress level -1

Overall there is a 33.3% reason this could be a positive addition in my life.

(though this allergic reaction is NOT helping me)

I've somehow become allergic to the laundry soap that I've been using. Which isn't pleasant especially since I don't have the time to re wash EVERYTHING and try to find a new soap that I'm NOT allergic to.

Stress level + 1

Stress is winning... I'll update later on the final score of the day.

Be careful what you wish for

My dad always told me this when I was younger and apparently I never listened. For the last 6 months I've been back and forth with what I want in life. I want L to change his ways because I love him, I miss Z and I want him to come home so we can be together, M is actually a really amazing person and I wouldn't mind giving it a shot if he were single, what ever happened to J?

TADA!!!!

Here they are. Full force. Everything I asked for right infront of me all at once. WTF do I do now? I'm realizing that I really enjoy complaining about my situation but when everything I asked for just falls in my lap, I don't know what to do with it.

Like a dog chasing a car...

Naturally I'll have to choose just one, but which one?!?! The one I've been with for three years that I can hardly stand anymore but I still love him deep down? The one I've been in love with since the day I met him 11 years ago? The one who has always been a friend until we got back in touch and all of a sudden I've fallen for him? Or the one that makes me laugh who (not gonna lie) we had our fun back in the day and I still want him more?

I know what you're thinking....How terrible can this really be? Four choices....between four hott guys who all have something fantastic to offer, YES PLEASE!!

The problem is that I can't pick all four and, usually, the ones that aren't chosen tend to be a little upset about it and don't want to continue to even talk to you anymore after that. So not only am I choosing ONE to be with for who knows how long (could only be a short time), I'm also choosing to say good bye to the other three.

Now do you see?

Oh good!! Still I can find something to complain about. Glad I haven't been completely effected by the situation.