WTF

What a hell of a week!!! Well, the boss that has been harassing me for the past three months got fired. I had requested that he be talked to and someone else made my boss but apparently after all the evidence that I had presented, corporate thought differently....most uncomfortable morning of my life. He wasn't happy with me. I thought about it and I actually don't give a shit. He is a 33 year old man who prides himself on being in the Navy. By that point in your life, if you don't have a sense of what is acceptable behavior and what isn't, then its a personal problem. Especially when that person has asked you nicely to stop and had conversations with you before reporting you. DUMB FUCK! Whatever, M is my new boss now and I love her to death. She's fantastic so even though my request for him to stay and just leave me alone didn't work out, I'm happy with the outcome.

Yesterday was rough for me. I couldn't stop thinking about J. I can't believe that its already been 4 years. For some reason though, this year was different. Usually I'm just sad and depressed and missing him. This time, I actually felt like he was trying to communicate with me. :-) I saw those red jeeps EVERYWHERE and out of the 5000 songs on my Ipod, the only three that were his favorites played over and over. Also, the lighter that he gave me that has been missing for months just showed up in my car....that I've only had for a month...coincidence? I think not!! He's finally here again. With me! :-) I have never believed in all this talking after someone has passed stuff but after yesterday, my mind has been changed. I actually had a good day after all of that stuff. Only problem was that I stayed up WAY too late and made work very difficult.

I've also decided to go on some sort of weight loss "thing". Not really a diet, just a way of losing weight by being mindful of what I eat and how much. Also, I want to get more active so I'm hoping Kino will join me. (Kino is the new baby husky) For a while in high school, I was restricting calories to 300 a day and then I found that drugs have the same effect just much faster!! Well since those two things are out of the question considering the promise of sobriety that I made after J passed, I am finally going to try to do it the healthier way. I teach a dance class on Fridays so I'll just be more active while teaching and I'll start taking an extra class on Monday. Since I finished my finals, I don't have to think about school again until August at least!!

Any other Ideas????? Anyone?? I'm open!!